Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Apologies

Recently, I've found myself being drawn to writing poetry on this blog. That isn't all I'm going to be doing here, though, to the five or so of you who actually read this. Tonight, I want to apologize to anyone who I've hurt.
 I'm sorry for how I treated you, if that was how I hurt you. 
I'm sorry if I just wasn't what you needed at the time and if I caused more harm than good. 
I'm sorry if I was petty and rude. I didn't mean for those words to be seen by you. 
I'm sorry that I can't make myself love you.
I'm sorry that I keep coming back.
I'm sorry for not stopping myself from liking you.
I'm sorry for letting stupid things getting to me and taking it out on you.
I'm sorry for blowing that situation out of proportion, when it wasn't all your fault.
I'm sorry that I kissed him. I know you liked him and that wasn't okay.
I'm sorry that I can't be as good of a friend as you are to me.
I'm sorry that I can probably never be the same person that I was before I turned bad.
I'm sorry I turned bad.
I'm sorry I lied to you.
I'm sorry that I do all these stupid things with good intentions and not realize that it's all wrong.
I'm sorry.
I'm just so sorry for everything, and I just want for everything to be okay.
Everything is okay right now, but I want for people to know that I'm making an effort.
I want to be happy.
I am happy,
But I want it to stay this time.
I want to free my conscience, but also be at peace with others around me.
So,
Again,
I'm sorry.