Hurting No Longer; This is Just Clarity

I thought.
I thought it was all done.
That it was all okay.
I thought the season had finally changed.
The warm weather.
Gone.
With the memories of you.
But even in the dead of winter.
It seems as if.
Just because you are here.
The warmth is returning.
Just for you and me.
Just for you.
To tease me.
To give me a taste.
Of what I thought I could not miss.
But the kisses.
The touches.
The nudges.
The up and down looks.
They fuck with my head.
And the more I think.
The more I remember.
The more I miss you. 
And it's still so stupid.
Because you are already moved on.
Off.
And I have become.
What I had intended to be.
A bridge.
That mends the gap.
Between your old life.
And the new. 
And you cross over me.
To get back to the old.
And I so want to be new again.

And now there is someone
Who makes me feel shiny and new
And it's alright, it's okay
It isn't you.